n88tr's log [foods and weights]

aild54 · 10-27-2009, 06:55 PM

If you don't mind me asking, why are you doing so much isolation work, n88tr?

n88tr · 10-27-2009, 07:03 PM

I don't know, maybe I'm just dumb is all.

My ankle's been bothering me so I don't feel ready to put a lot of weight on it with squats or deads for example. I don't do back now that I'm doing a natural recovery from my injury so that just leaves bench. I do bench now and again but it's not always in my chest routines.

aild54 · 10-27-2009, 07:07 PM

You aren't dumb, man. Why don't you bench every time you hit your chest? Or do you mean flat bench? Depending on how you bench (feet out wide), it shouldn't hurt your ankle. But if you don't feel like benching, it's all good.

n88tr · 10-27-2009, 07:26 PM

It's hard for me to come to grips with the realization that I was not genetically-made for this sport. Realistically it's the last thing I should do but it's a constant challenge and that's why I'm hooked. I look nothing like I want to, nor feel it, and that's on a daily basis even though I am consumed with it. When I'm in the gym I only think about the weight and never look in mirror, avoid it because I hate my face, my body, my everything. I think about the future when I'll use but then after my post when I feel like crap and just want to sleep for hours I fear the needle and feel sick about thinking about using gear. I flip flop like that. I don't know if that means I'm not serious enough, or it's natural to be afraid of things and unsure of how to overcome them.

For me progress comes slowly and I'm tired of hearing how certain exercises are so great and I go to sites that are so great but they hype products out the ass and I'm sick of that. I know what's good and what's bad but everyone treats me like a noob and I never open my mouth in real life unless directly asked a question because I don't like how my voice sounds or my answers I regret because my grammar was not perfect, or I imagined myself saying it in my head and regretted it then so I never really talk to anyone.

And then I think I have it all figured out with my tuna, chicken and rice and working to the max every time in the gym and someone comes along and says it's not about busting your ass it's about working intelligently and I don't know what they're talking about and I feel stupid and I curl up more and more inside myself. It's hard for me to know what to listen to and what to ignore, sometimes bullshi.t is hard for me to spot and I feel even stupider for not realizing it.

And as I get bigger I see people looking at me more and more. Is this what a bodybuilder has everyday, esp in the gym, people staring at them? It's annoying as hell. Come up to me and say something or just mind your own business. It's like they don't think I can FEEL their eyes on me, I can, everyone can feel that crap. And sometimes I wonder if this is really what I want, to get huge and every dream comes true, then what? What does it take to get all my dreams? Granted gear later on, no doubt but after I get past that fear I have little else to worry about. No doubt my fear of needles and vials of liquid gear is much harder to overcome than my weightloss, which is seemingly what I am known for. Don't tell me I look better, I look like shi.t, I feel like shi.t. My sleep is terrible, it's hard as hell for me to diet for 3 weeks straight. I've injured myself twice with my Back and now my Ankle. Just when I was recovering from my Back I go and fu.ck up my ankle. And for what? So my calves would be 1/2 inch bigger? Madness.

But I won't stop because my dreams are still far away and it's a challenge. A challenge I can think about, learn more about, spend money on, time on, mental energy. One side of me doesn't give a fuc.k what people look at me and what they think, and I want them to be envious I want them to wonder how I got big and how I worked hard, what magic moves I did, what magic foods I ate and I won't say a thing. Not a word. Let them figure it all out on their own, that's what Bodybuilding is, a life struggle, not a book you pick up and read and be done with it. The other side of me struggles with my physical identity and who I am, who I am slowly [I hope] changing into. My mother told me she [and the rest of the family effectively] would disown me if I did gear, disown me mentally, emotionally, financially and everything else. One part of me says fuc.k her, she doesn't know what I want or how bad I want it. And she'll realize I'm serious and gear is just another step I need to take to realize my goals, it's nothing special. The other part of me wants her to understand my desire to get big, look big, get strong, be all that good stuff in my head that keeps me insanely driven. But I don't know what will happen. Whatever happens I won't ever give up.

**projecthatch92** · 10-27-2009, 09:50 PM

Great post n88tr. I obviously don't know what you're going through exactly, but I get in moods that I feel are similar to what you're explaining. Sometimes I wonder what I've gotten into, and maybe if I'm missing out on other things. Why do I chose to eat 7-8 meals a day? Why do I chose to not drink? Why do I spent countless hours on the internet reading about nutrition, training, posing, etc... I feel that bodybuilding has consumed my life, but for the better, at least I hope so. I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, other than prohormones. But is it all worth it? I find myself judging people that go out and drink every night, yet, I used to be one of those people. I judge people who smoke cigs, yet I used to do that.

The biggest thing that boggles my mind is will I ever stop? Where do I want to go with this and how big do I want to get? I'm already 75 lbs heavier than I was in highschool. I mean that's a huge change.

Not to steal your thunder, but your thread, and especially that last post has made me think of things in my life at a different viewpoint. And I thank you for that.

Sorry for my mindless rant lol, but keepin pushing hard. Don't listen to anyone else, that's what I say. Look at the amazing progress you've made so far, and look at your dedication as well. Keep doing what you're doing now, and I'm sure you'll get to your goal, whatever it may be.

**mikeh40+** · 10-27-2009, 10:46 PM

n88tr,
many of the things you posted are things we all go through, i think the majority of bodybuilders/ power lifters, anyone that is in sports, ect. has at one time wondered just what the hell is it all for, all the constant dieting, bulking, cutting, cardio, lifting this or that, always changing things,
second guessing ourselves is part of the grand scheme of life, and this particular lifestyle where there is so much to learn , its no wonder we have no idea just what the hell were doing,
waiting for muscles to grow, or shape and look were striving for, were does it all end? what is it all for?
well what i can say is its for you, and you alone, yes its great to get attention and comments on how you look, but the bottom line is we do it because we are not happy with what we look like, we strive for perfection , we are not happy ever, i cant even think how many times i told myself i`m still skinny, still never happy with the size i have, and i probably never will, but with out that, i would have no motivation to continue on,
see if we were content with where we were then what is there to push onward to? where does the motivation come from? not from a girl friend, or a wife, or your friends, yea they can support you, but they cannot make your mind continue on with what your trying to achieve, cannot feel your agony, your pain, your constant wondering if your doing things correctly,
that is the prize you alone can claim, you did it , all of it, we all can offer advice, but only you know your body and your level of drive and commitment,

Yes injury's make one wonder what the hell am i doing this for, but it does`nt stop us, just pisses us off that we cant train due to the injury, thats what make the difference between someone that casually trains, and us that take it to the next level, we want to do this, we need to do this, and we will do this,,,

using gear or not down the road is a choice you`ll make when you get there, but you need to come to acceptance with the fact this is where you belong, everything else just comes with the territory,

keep it going n88tr, its who you are

dapack · 10-28-2009, 03:12 PM

sounds like you just need to take a step back and regroup. agree with the above post too, normal for all of us. trust me, i ask myself all the time why i am doing this, but like you said i like/ love the challenge of pushing myself mentally, physically, and emotionally and i am hooked. really would like to see you hit each muscle x2 a week for awhile and see how that works for you, can not remember is you ever done that or not, but honestly i will never go back to x1 week unless i am coasting for the time being.

n88tr · 11-01-2009, 07:10 PM

Tuesday, Off

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Wednesday, Triceps

CGBP
x9 bar
2x8 65 lbs
2x8 85 lbs
x7 115 lbs
2x4 135 lbs

lying down ez bar behind head extensions
x8 35 lbs
2x8 45 lbs
2x7 55 lbs
2x7 65 lbs, NEW Personal Best, weight handed to me
2x6 75 lbs, NEW Personal Best, weight handed to me

dumbbell skullcrushers
x8 50 lbs
x0 70 lbs, x0 60 lbs
x8 50 lbs

standing rope overhead extensions
x8 70 lbs, NEW Personal Best
x8 80 lbs, NEW Personal Best
x8 90 lbs, NEW Personal Best

rope pushdowns
2x8 200 lbs, NEW Personal Best

standing rope overhead extensions
2x5 100 lbs, NEW Personal Best
2x7 110 lbs, NEW Personal Best

seated machine pushdowns
2x10 130 lbs

seated machine pushdowns ss 1-arm seated machine pushdowns ss 1-arm overhead dumbbell extenions, giant sets
x10 130 lbs, x8 100 lbs Left, x8 100 lbs Right, x8 15 lbs Left, x8 15 lbs Right
x10 130 lbs, x8 100 lbs Left, x8 100 lbs Right, x8 15 lbs Left, x8 15 lbs Right
x10 130 lbs, x8 90 lbs Left, x8 90 lbs Right, x4 15 lbs Left, x4 15 lbs Right
x10 130 lbs, x8 90 lbs Left, x8 90 lbs Right, x4 15 lbs Left, x4 15 lbs Right
x10 130 lbs, x8 90 lbs Left, x8 90 lbs Right, x4 15 lbs Left, x4 15 lbs Right

seated machine pushdowns ss 1-arm seated machine pushdowns
x30 100 lbs, x3 50 lbs Left, x4 50 lbs Right

... I couldn't get my heavy skullcrushers done, felt depleted so I "hulked out" and went crazy heavy with the standing extensions and pushdowns. 200 felt light, I just was angry and went for it.

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Thursday, Delts + Shoulders + Abs

dumbbell military overhead press
2x11 35's

cable side laterals, new exercise for me
x7 10 lbs Left, x7 10 lbs Right
x5 15 lbs Left, x5 15 lbs Right
x6 10 lbs Left, x6 10 lbs Right
... these felt really awkward but I think it was doing them right

45* upright bench pre-loaded bar front raises
x8 60 lbs
2x6 80 lbs, NEW Personal Best
x6 60 lbs

45* upright bench dumbbell front raises, new exercise for me
2x6 20's
x4 20's
...wow dbs lot harder than barbell, more stabilization needed

machine delt lateral raises
x2 10 lbs, x3 30 lbs, x2 50 lbs
2x4 80 lbs
x6 70 lbs

back hyperextensions ss knee raises ss weight-resistance torso rotations
x8 bodyweight, x8, x9 70 lbs
x8 with 25 lb plate, x8, x9 70 lbs
x8 with 45 lb plate, x8, x9 70 lbs, NEW Personal Best with the plate, didn't hurt either

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Friday, Off

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Saturday, Off

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Sunday, Today, Chest + Biceps

Will post when done

... Feeling better from a few days off, taking more time for recovery on my ankle.

**HawaiianPride.** · 11-01-2009, 07:40 PM

Holy moly that's alot of PB's man congrats.

aild54 · 11-01-2009, 08:55 PM

Damnnn. Good job, N88tr. I'll rep you the next time I'm able to.

n88tr · 11-02-2009, 12:56 AM

I was hoping for some NPBs when I did Chest + Triceps tonight [no Biceps]. But that did not happen. Instead I came upon a revelation. I'll keep that till the end of the post, I'll just post the workout to get it out of the way.

Chest + Triceps

barbell bench press
2x9 95 lbs
2x5 135 lbs
2x4 155 lbs

dumbbell bench press, flat
x8 55's
2x4 65's

dumbbell pullover
x6 50 lbs
x2 70 lbs, 1/2 ROM, felt horrible
2x4 60 lbs
x7 60 lbs

lying on bench ez bar 'to forehead' extensions
x5 75 lbs, throw it up there
2x6 55 lbs
2x4 55 lbs

incline chest press machine
x8 100 lbs
x0 150 lbs, getting depressed I guess, x7 140 lbs, weight super hard

My revelation is that I have been in the gym for as long as I can push weight. But by doing this over and over and over pretty much each session for most of my workout life I have hindered myself and my energy level. I've come to the realization that instead of working 100% or what I think I can 100%, I do that and then spent extra time in the gym, just punishing myself with weight but never really doing anything new. I've been working just to work but never doing anything different and this I know is counter-productive. At least it gives me something to think about now, a way to save energy so I don't burn out so soon each workout time.

But I also make most of my NPBs during that punishing time where I just go for the weight out of no where with confidence I don't feel when I step in the gym or I get mad because I couldn't do reps with some weight and I randomly "hulk out" like I said before I just rape the weight. If I could learn to apply that confidence and intensity right off the bat that would be much better I think. Save me some time and energy.

I don't really know how I'll change my pattern to fix this but I really think I should learn how to.

I'm getting tired of being small. I mean yeah I'm tall but besides that I'm small. That's the main thing that keeps me pushing hard. Sometimes I think sub-consciously I eat junk just so I look bigger even though it's just fat.

Thanks for all the rep guys, lets me know at least I'm doing something right.

**mikeh40+** · 11-02-2009, 03:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by n88tr

I was hoping for some NPBs when I did Chest + Triceps tonight [no Biceps]. But that did not happen. Instead I came upon a revelation. I'll keep that till the end of the post, I'll just post the workout to get it out of the way.

Chest + Triceps

barbell bench press
2x9 95 lbs
2x5 135 lbs
2x4 155 lbs

dumbbell bench press, flat
x8 55's
2x4 65's

dumbbell pullover
x6 50 lbs
x2 70 lbs, 1/2 ROM, felt horrible
2x4 60 lbs
x7 60 lbs

lying on bench ez bar 'to forehead' extensions
x5 75 lbs, throw it up there
2x6 55 lbs
2x4 55 lbs

incline chest press machine
x8 100 lbs
x0 150 lbs, getting depressed I guess, x7 140 lbs, weight super hard

My revelation is that I have been in the gym for as long as I can push weight. But by doing this over and over and over pretty much each session for most of my workout life I have hindered myself and my energy level. I've come to the realization that instead of working 100% or what I think I can 100%, I do that and then spent extra time in the gym, just punishing myself with weight but never really doing anything new. I've been working just to work but never doing anything different and this I know is counter-productive. At least it gives me something to think about now, a way to save energy so I don't burn out so soon each workout time.

But I also make most of my NPBs during that punishing time where I just go for the weight out of no where with confidence I don't feel when I step in the gym or I get mad because I couldn't do reps with some weight and I randomly "hulk out" like I said before I just rape the weight. If I could learn to apply that confidence and intensity right off the bat that would be much better I think. Save me some time and energy.

I don't really know how I'll change my pattern to fix this but I really think I should learn how to.

I'm getting tired of being small. I mean yeah I'm tall but besides that I'm small. That's the main thing that keeps me pushing hard. Sometimes I think sub-consciously I eat junk just so I look bigger even though it's just fat.

Thanks for all the rep guys, lets me know at least I'm doing something right.

guess i`m kinda lost here, i mean you have a bunch of PB`s and thats a sign that your improving, and you should have put on some size in all your time in the gym by now right? or is it your just not happy with the amount of changes so far? seems your getting in the most of your workouts and hitting new records is not something to hang your head about, look up and be proud of the fact that your moving forward with your new PB`s,,

n88tr · 11-02-2009, 02:07 PM

Yeah I know I keep making new PBs [I call them NPBs but whatever] but I don't seem to be blowing up like I want to. I think it's just more time. I'm dying to get big. I'd give up so much to get there, I don't know but it's incredible how much I want this.

**mikeh40+** · 11-02-2009, 02:55 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by n88tr

Yeah I know I keep making new PBs [I call them NPBs but whatever] but I don't seem to be blowing up like I want to. I think it's just more time. I'm dying to get big. I'd give up so much to get there, I don't know but it's incredible how much I want this.

you`ll get there bro, time is a mother fuker when it comes to seeing growth, its taken me 20 years to acquire what i have and i`m still looking for more, lol.. but your drive is awesome, just keep pluggin away,

**projecthatch92** · 11-02-2009, 03:10 PM

cosign with big mikey. it takes awhile, but I feel like I will never end. Arnold put it the best way in Pumping Iron. We're like sculptors, but with our bodies

aild54 · 11-02-2009, 04:16 PM

Plus, maybe you have to try other routines and diets that work for YOU.

n88tr · 11-04-2009, 10:29 PM

Shoulders tonight

Been putting on a lot of fat lately, don't know what's going on. I feel like sometimes my metabolism is high and then other days is like death slow. Been eating consistently high protein, 150-200 carbs a day, fat low. Been eating a lot of chicken breast meat, raw broccoli, and low fat cereal with skim milk. I feel like since my ankle mess up I've gained 12 lbs of fat. God I got to get better with my leg so I can do cardio again... I'm the kind of person that can get used to anything if I do it on a regular basis, I really like routines and am a big creature of habit. Cardio was one of those things I was doing really well with till my ankle got messed up, now I'm doing the broccoli again because I feel more manly idk test maybe? when I eat a lot of it. I buy 2 stalks and eat that in 5 days, gotta get some more tomorrow. The ankle has been feeling strong for the last 2 days but I gotta give it a few more days before I try out the treadmill again, see where my ankle's at.

n88tr · 11-05-2009, 01:36 AM

Training more intense early on and saving some energy for next workouts, I get burned out each workout, I'm trying to take a step back from that and just put all I got into the early sets instead of just running around and doing all the exercises I can without stimulating the muscle right off the bat.

dumbbell overhead military press
2x8 30's
2x8 45's
2x6 50's
x0 55's, can't get em up
x0 55's, got em up but no reps, close though!
2x5 50's

dumbbell side laterals ss dumbbell front raises
x4 20's, x3 20's

lying on a 45 degree bench ez bar front raises
2x3 85 lbs
2x4 65 lbs
2x4 45 lbs

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Tomorrow at Gold's I'll do Biceps + Abs

Friday, Chest + Triceps

dapack · 11-05-2009, 02:40 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by n88tr

Training more intense early on and saving some energy for next workouts, I get burned out each workout, I'm trying to take a step back from that and just put all I got into the early sets instead of just running around and doing all the exercises I can without stimulating the muscle right off the bat.

dumbbell overhead military press
2x8 30's
2x8 45's
2x6 50's
x0 55's, can't get em up
x0 55's, got em up but no reps, close though!
2x5 50's

dumbbell side laterals ss dumbbell front raises
x4 20's, x3 20's

lying on a 45 degree bench ez bar front raises
2x3 85 lbs
2x4 65 lbs
2x4 45 lbs

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Tomorrow at Gold's I'll do Biceps + Abs

Friday, Chest + Triceps

That is a very nice and simple shoulder workout, really don't need anything else, only thing I would suggest is a little less sets on the other 2 exercises after the dbl presses, maybe 4 sets total, personally don't think you need all the front raises, I actually never do front raises, just concentrate on side and rear, your fronts get a lot of workout with the dbl press and when you work your chest.

n88tr · 11-05-2009, 05:11 PM

Thanks for the advice. And I didn't know my fronts got worked so much, thanks.

n88tr · 11-08-2009, 06:29 PM

Thursday, Bis + Abs @GoldsGym

rope hammer curls
2x14 32.5 lbs

rope hammer curls ss alternating dumbbell hammer curls
x1 57.5 lbs finished set x4 47.5 lbs, x10 30's
x5 47.5 lbs, x8 40's
x8 47.5 lbs, x8 40's
x6 42.5 lbs, x8 30's, stricter form
x4 52.5 lbs, x8 30's

1-arm cable curls ss standing Arnold concentration curls
x4 17 lbs Left, x4 17 lbs Right, x8 20 lbs Left, x8 20 lbs Right
x4 22 lbs Left, x4 22 lbs Right, x8 20 lbs Left, x8 20 lbs Right
... weight feels strange, 22 feels like 80 I'm going crazy or my arms are just that bad

cable curls with lat pulldown bar
x13 32.5 lbs
x6 42.5 lbs
x4 42.5 lbs, arms failing

back hyperextensions, sets back to back
x7 bodyweight, x7 25 lb plate, x7 45 lb plate
x7 bodyweight, x7 25 lb plate, x7 45 lb plate

knee raises
2x15

weight-resistance torso rotations
3x10 80 lbs

bicycle crunches ss hand stretch to sides crunches
x30, x20
x15, x25
x20, x20
... felt the side crunches in my lower abs a lot

Friday, arms hurt too much to workout

Saturday, same thing

Sunday, now it's game time, Chest + Triceps

... I had a horrible arm workout and an awesome ab workout. My biceps are just horrible things. They hurt so much then next day and the day after I just stayed at home and rested. Either I'm hitting them just right and need to hit them more often or I'm doing something really wrong. I'm taking dapack's advice and am working each bodypart more often, switching up my training style.

My ankle has been solid for 2 weeks now, no pain or soreness so I'm going to give a warmup treadmill session a go today before I hit the bench. If all goes well I'll start squatting and deading again.

Had a huge cheat meal yesterday, Saturday, satisfied my every craving. Went shopping this morning for my dorm fridge, got lots of broccoli, carrots, apples, bananas, tuna and water. I'm going to try to stay away as much as I can from packaged foods like cereal, bread, etc. I think I'm one of those insulin-resistant people where bread/cereal just makes me gain weight like crazy. Eating clean and trying hard again.

dapack · 11-08-2009, 06:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by n88tr

Thursday, Bis + Abs @GoldsGym

rope hammer curls
2x14 32.5 lbs

rope hammer curls ss alternating dumbbell hammer curls
x1 57.5 lbs finished set x4 47.5 lbs, x10 30's
x5 47.5 lbs, x8 40's
x8 47.5 lbs, x8 40's
x6 42.5 lbs, x8 30's, stricter form
x4 52.5 lbs, x8 30's

1-arm cable curls ss standing Arnold concentration curls
x4 17 lbs Left, x4 17 lbs Right, x8 20 lbs Left, x8 20 lbs Right
x4 22 lbs Left, x4 22 lbs Right, x8 20 lbs Left, x8 20 lbs Right
... weight feels strange, 22 feels like 80 I'm going crazy or my arms are just that bad

cable curls with lat pulldown bar
x13 32.5 lbs
x6 42.5 lbs
x4 42.5 lbs, arms failing

back hyperextensions, sets back to back
x7 bodyweight, x7 25 lb plate, x7 45 lb plate
x7 bodyweight, x7 25 lb plate, x7 45 lb plate

knee raises
2x15

weight-resistance torso rotations
3x10 80 lbs

bicycle crunches ss hand stretch to sides crunches
x30, x20
x15, x25
x20, x20
... felt the side crunches in my lower abs a lot

Friday, arms hurt too much to workout

Saturday, same thing

Sunday, now it's game time, Chest + Triceps

... I had a horrible arm workout and an awesome ab workout. My biceps are just horrible things. They hurt so much then next day and the day after I just stayed at home and rested. Either I'm hitting them just right and need to hit them more often or I'm doing something really wrong. I'm taking dapack's advice and am working each bodypart more often, switching up my training style.

My ankle has been solid for 2 weeks now, no pain or soreness so I'm going to give a warmup treadmill session a go today before I hit the bench. If all goes well I'll start squatting and deading again.

Had a huge cheat meal yesterday, Saturday, satisfied my every craving. Went shopping this morning for my dorm fridge, got lots of broccoli, carrots, apples, bananas, tuna and water. I'm going to try to stay away as much as I can from packaged foods like cereal, bread, etc. I think I'm one of those insulin-resistant people where bread/cereal just makes me gain weight like crazy. Eating clean and trying hard again.

be very careful on the sets/ reps you are doing when hitting more frequent, if you are not it will be very counter productive. good way that i use is if you want to hit you chest twice this week for example start the first workout with heavy weights/ low reps, easier to recover from. next workout play with reps or different training style/methods. good way to come up with sets is if you do 12 for your chest in a week just split it 6 and 6 for the workouts. personally for me i would not hit my biceps again after your workout for at least 4 days of rest, that should be plenty. hope this works for you, done wonders for me.

n88tr · 11-08-2009, 10:21 PM

Thanks for the split and bicep advice dapack.

Tonight's workout, Chest + Triceps + Cardio

barbell bench press
2x7 95 lbs
x6 145 lbs

dumbbell bench press
x7 45's
2x4 65's
x5 60's

incline dumbbell bench press
x5 60's, might be NPB, not sure

between two benches, tricep dips
6x5
... tris a' hurtin, hit em really hard with my fat weight

Post
40 g whey isolate
13 g gatorade powder

Cardio
25 mins run alt walk outside

Back at dorm, eat again
banana
lots of water

Bed
5 g glutamine, 5 g arginine, 2 MSM, 1 melatonin pill
chicken breast pieces

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Tomorrow, hope Squats + Shoulders

My shins always hurt like a MFer after I'm done doing any running cardio, esp outside with varying terrain resistances. I want to do cardio again tomorrow but I'll see where the pain/discomfort is at.

I took a new set of pics with my camera. I feel like 300 lbs though I'm probably 235-240. I gotta get down again, I've lost my way again.

Hands shaking so bad took me a few minutes to get a non-blurry picture taken. I set up appointment with neurologist to in Dec to see what he can tell me about my shaky hands. Some days are really bad, others not so much.

I went to workout at 700 pm till 725, cardio from 730 till 750. It's 822 pm now, I'm freaking tired. I don't remember the last time I went to bed this early. I wish our dorm doors were sound-proofed, then I wouldn't get woken up by some stupid bitches screaming for no reason. I tell you girls are annoying when you're trying to sleep in college dormitories. But my melatonin helps a lot, it def keeps me in a deeper more continuous sleep.

aild54 · 11-16-2009, 08:31 PM

N88trrrrr, where'd you go?

n88tr · 11-17-2009, 07:42 PM

Life. Sometimes it is demanding.

Oh well I had a workout about 5 days ago, I've been really depressed lately. I don't know why; my projects in college are all coming together, no big worries, weights in weight room seem to increase every 3rd workout at least, food plentiful, etc. I guess maybe it's from stress in college courses, off and on back irritation, being unmotivated to do cardio and feeling guilty, the usual excuses. Oh and my workout log was stolen from my locker at GoldsGym last time I worked out, I did Legs + SLDLs + Triceps + Abs then. Funny bastard all he/she took was my workout log, nothing else from my locker.

I'm seriously considering stopping SLDLs and deadlifts all together because they irritate my back and I don't want any pain there anymore. My DL form is fine but I can't seem to get SLDLs right, my legs are locked for the rep but I feel it all in my lower back and never really hit hard in the hams, where it's supposed to feel. That and I'm getting worried about keep injuring myself. I mean hell I'm young and I've already screwed up my back, banged both of my knees really good and am now like 90% over my left ankle fracture. I'm a lot more cautious in the gym but I worry about where that will leave my intensity, I'm unsure.

Last time I posted I was doing veggies/fruits/protein only diet, determined not to have any manufactured carbs in there. That diet lasted exactly 1 week. I was eating every 1.5 hours except for during the night, it was hard on me. Not that I get tired of eating but it was hard on my classes having to leave now and then to eat in the hall, or just getting used to the diet, I don't know it was hard. And my energy was super low.

Now I'm carbing again but trying to watch it, find a happy place between not eating too much and eating enough so I have energy. I remember back when I first started making NPBs like crazy, I was eating high protein and moderate carbs. Not that I think for sure that diet will work again but it's good to remember at least. All I keep thinking about is I just want to get big.

Well here's from memory the last workout I did,

squats
2x12 95 lbs
2x4 135 lbs
2x2 185 lbs, NEW Personal Best
x1 225, NEW Personal Best, about 3 inches shy of ATG
... fu.cking sick can't believe I even did one

SLDLs
2x8 95 lbs
2x8 135 lbs
x7 185 lbs
x2 225 lbs, NEW Personal Best

dumbbell skullcrushers ss 1-arm overhead extensions
x8 40 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left arm, x4 20 lbs Left arm
x8 40 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left arm, x4 20 lbs Left arm
x8 60 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left arm, x4 20 lbs Left arm
x8 60 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left arm, x4 20 lbs Left arm
x8 80 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left arm, x4 20 lbs Left arm

seated rope behind head extensions
x8 37.5 lbs
x8 45.5 lbs
x6 67.5 lbs
2x4 75.2 lbs
2x4 85.5 lbs, NEW Personal Best

lying pre-loaded ez bar extensions, bar touches forehead ss 1-arm overhead extensions
x6 60 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left Arm, x4 20 lbs Right Arm
x6 80 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left Arm, x4 20 lbs Right Arm
x4 100 lbs, x4 20 lbs Left Arm, x4 20 lbs Right Arm, NEW Personal Best

giant sets
back hyperextensions ss knee raises ss weight-resistance torso rotations
x8 bodyweight, x12, x8 80 lbs
x8 25 lb plate, x12, x8 80 lbs
x7 45 plate, x12, x8 80 lbs

Workout was decent but I was pissed my SLDLs weren't going so well.

I want to get back into the swing of things again, plan on doing something tomorrow. Need to get committed again.

aild54 · 11-17-2009, 08:29 PM

I'm sorry you've been feeling down, buddy. Everything will clear up, no worries. If you don't mind me asking, do you have a girlfriend, or do you hang out with your friends very often? When I don't have at least one of those, I get down in the dumps. It's nice to surround yourself with positive people. Girlfriends have their disadvantages, for sure, but they sure are nice to have.

Anyway, as for my take on the SLDLs, have you tried them without locking your knees? When I do them, I bend my knees a little bit, and focus a lot on driving my ass back while keeping my head up. That, and I like to squeeze my hams at the bottom of the rep, then force my hips forward, like I'm trying to have sex with a brick wall. You could give that a shot.

n88tr · 11-17-2009, 10:51 PM

It'll sound like I'm looking for pity but I'm not when I say I don't have any friends. I sort of feel close to people when they're having a conversation with someone else, it sounds lame I know but I've never really had a "friend" let alone BF/GF. I've never really tried to make friends with anyone, I've been so into whatever I was into at the moment: school, workout stuff, entertainment options that I never tried to have a relationship with anyone. I've said it before and I'll say it again, the Dungeon is my only positive support group. At home no one wants to hear about my foods or workouts, we live in totally different worlds.

As for the SLDLs, I'm willing to give them another shot as long as my back stays out of the equation. I've noticed my back doing really well but then like the next day after SLDLs or DLs my back has some pain and I'm tired of having back pain. At this point I know I'm doing SLDLs wrong if my back hurts so I have to think about this some more.

At the moment I'm reading about carb cycling, something I want to give a try. If anyone can help out, I'm reading this article at the moment.

Thanks for checking in and the support brosef.

aild54 · 11-18-2009, 05:57 AM

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Originally Posted by n88tr

It'll sound like I'm looking for pity but I'm not when I say I don't have any friends. I sort of feel close to people when they're having a conversation with someone else, it sounds lame I know but I've never really had a "friend" let alone BF/GF. I've never really tried to make friends with anyone, I've been so into whatever I was into at the moment: school, workout stuff, entertainment options that I never tried to have a relationship with anyone. I've said it before and I'll say it again, the Dungeon is my only positive support group. At home no one wants to hear about my foods or workouts, we live in totally different worlds.

As for the SLDLs, I'm willing to give them another shot as long as my back stays out of the equation. I've noticed my back doing really well but then like the next day after SLDLs or DLs my back has some pain and I'm tired of having back pain. At this point I know I'm doing SLDLs wrong if my back hurts so I have to think about this some more.

At the moment I'm reading about carb cycling, something I want to give a try. If anyone can help out, I'm reading this article at the moment.

Thanks for checking in and the support brosef.

I know what you mean. It's easy to fall into a rut and keep doing the same **** every day. It's sooo easy to make your life just eating, school, and lifting. I used to do that. Then my friends basically told me what's up. I had the decision to keep doing what I'm doing, or change something. I started lifting in the mornings so I could hang out after school. What I'm trying to say is that it may be easy to just lift, eat, sleep, and do school work, but sometimes you have to get out there and have fun. If it means skipping school, or a workout, I'm sure one day wouldn't hurt. Your classes seem hard, I'm not trying to take that away from you, but you are an intelligent guy. You'll catch up. What I'm trying to say is that you should enjoy life, bro. Sure, we've got one body, we should make it look good. But we've also only got one life. My best friend is really philosophical, and he and I are always thinking of why we're alive. For me, lifting gives me a reason to live, but you have to have other things out there that make you happy. Please, don't think I'm trying to talk down on you, I'm just trying to say that we used to be in the same boat, and then I realized that wasn't where I wanted to be.

As for the SLDLs, you could ask a personal trainer, or someone at the gym if your back is staying perfectly straight the entire time. I would seriously just do really light weight. Not even 135.

Sorry, man, I don't have time to read that article at the moment, but I'm currently doing keto and absolutely love it. You could give it a shot. I can help you out with it, and, if you're interested, I'll see if Thomas will stop by to lend a helping hand.

n88tr · 11-18-2009, 01:10 PM

I feel you on your 'getting a life outside of BBing.' But sometimes I think I need to be 100% anal and dialed in just to get gains/losses, depending on my goals.

SLDLs, I can put them off for a while and concentrate on things I want more like wt loss, arms, chest, lower back work, etc.

I like Carb cycling because I've done a little bit of it before and liked it a lot but it was sort of hard to prepare so much food in advance and remember which days were high/moderate/low and then actually work out! My schedule is pretty unpredictable these days. Some days I get up at 700am for my 800am to 145pm classes back to back and then later I have 600pm to 845pm night class. What I'm saying is sometimes it's hard to just find the energy to do anything!

I'll look at keto, there is a lot of information about it right here, yes.

Plan on cardio today.

dapack · 11-18-2009, 03:42 PM

Do not worry to much about SLDL's and Dead's you can still build a great back and hammies without them. I do not do them to often for the same reason, they just take to much out of my lower back, form is great, just a weak lower back I have, just something I learned to work around. Have you tried Rack Dead's, that will def take pressure off you lower back but still give you a great back workout? There are tons of way to work the hammies besides SLDL so just use a different exercise, I personally like Dbl Curls since my gym only has a seated curl machine and if I use it to much kills my knees. Great job on the PB's!!!!