[KM]

Originally Posted by Kirk

look great!!! 1.5 gallons bro!!! damn straight you're trying to up it, it takes time. when im trying to increase my water intake i just draw 4 lines on the side of the gallon jug (splitting the day up into quarter increments) and tell myself, "by 11:00am im going to drink this much, by 3:00 im going to drink this much, by 6:00 im going to drink this much, and by 11:00 im going to drink this much". it helps dramatically, that way you're not trying to play catch up later and becoming bloated late in the day.

Wow man, that's a great idea. I have a 35 oz jug that I fill, and keep refilling it until it adds up to what I need. Sometimes I go out with friends, take naps, what have you and I forget to refill it. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get in around 2 gallons today! I'll be trying your method tomorrow. I just won't use a milk gallon jug, I look like a complete meathead with that LOL.

[Kirk]

Originally Posted by KM

Wow man, that's a great idea. I have a 35 oz jug that I fill, and keep refilling it until it adds up to what I need. Sometimes I go out with friends, take naps, what have you and I forget to refill it. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to get in around 2 gallons today! I'll be trying your method tomorrow. I just won't use a milk gallon jug, I look like a complete meathead with that LOL.

it definitely works, when im trying to get more water in i do gallon jugs, but if im maintaining my water intake from day to day then i just use my liter jug, nice and easy. cosign meathead* with the gallon jug comment, lol...but eh let people think what they think.

[KM]

No Log today, was real busy. I hit the gym tomorrow so a beast Log will come tomorrow!



Kevin

[YM123]

will be looking forward to it mate!!!!

[KM]

Hey guys.

Well, some bad news everyone, need support. I was taking another round of Posing pictures and I've had something done to me that never really happens. You guys have seen my log, seen how I am, see how I try to perfect and make everything the best I can and perform the elements of Bodybuilding with 100%. For the first time, ever, I had a physiological break down. In my head I kept seeing the same skinny kid, same damn pose looking smaller. An example; when I did a Rear Lat Spread, the picture showed parts of my rib, but in the mirror I don't. I looked skinny and it looked like I hadn't gained a thing. I was in the worst form I've been in my lifting career. My dad was there, did nothing to help me get mentally better. Bodybuilding is such an intense sport, not only on your body but in your head. Every week closer to the contest date, I get worse. Stress builds. I was so upset/frustrated last night that I said "I fucking quit, I did all of this shit for nothing". What did my dad say? Nothing! Sorry for my rant guys but you know how much this means to me. I was on the verge of tossing out my diaries, my journals, log, everything. I don't know if it was my mind, the camera what have you. To say the least; gaining 14 lbs, mostly clean it doesn't show one bit in my mind. I feel like everything I've done went to hell, gained nothing. More than anything, above all, I'm freaked out. I look awful standing still, not flexing. No way in fucking hell I'll win a show, looking like I do now. I'm not exuding the contest, but my mind is fried. Not to sound like a little bitch, I'm sure you all of gone through these times. I thank everyone for following my log, kept me from hitting this part of my career from starting sooner. I am never the one to give up and I was almost on the verge until I talked to Brent (Freak) Thanks bud. Sorry for making you guys read all that and thank you. One of the biggest parts to the sport; Mental Strength- I'm lacking. I guess I need to man up, eat more and get more serious. Even though I don't think I can get any more serious. Thanks for reading once again.

In regards to my log, there's a huge snow storm here in Jersey. Not going to be able to go to the gym, whole family is home from work. Off day, which sucks- screws up the week of HST. I'm going to try to eat 8 meals today, up every macro. Posing will be on here later as well as my meal plan for the day.



Kevin

[chrispghmuscle]

Originally Posted by KM

Hey guys.

Well, some bad news everyone, need support. I was taking another round of Posing pictures and I've had something done to me that never really happens. You guys have seen my log, seen how I am, see how I try to perfect and make everything the best I can and perform the elements of Bodybuilding with 100%. For the first time, ever, I had a physiological break down. In my head I kept seeing the same skinny kid, same damn pose looking smaller. An example; when I did a Rear Lat Spread, the picture showed parts of my rib, but in the mirror I don't. I looked skinny and it looked like I hadn't gained a thing. I was in the worst form I've been in my lifting career. My dad was there, did nothing to help me get mentally better. Bodybuilding is such an intense sport, not only on your body but in your head. Every week closer to the contest date, I get worse. Stress builds. I was so upset/frustrated last night that I said "I fucking quit, I did all of this shit for nothing". What did my dad say? Nothing! Sorry for my rant guys but you know how much this means to me. I was on the verge of tossing out my diaries, my journals, log, everything. I don't know if it was my mind, the camera what have you. To say the least; gaining 14 lbs, mostly clean it doesn't show one bit in my mind. I feel like everything I've done went to hell, gained nothing. More than anything, above all, I'm freaked out. I look awful standing still, not flexing. No way in fucking hell I'll win a show, looking like I do now. I'm not exuding the contest, but my mind is fried. Not to sound like a little bitch, I'm sure you all of gone through these times. I thank everyone for following my log, kept me from hitting this part of my career from starting sooner. I am never the one to give up and I was almost on the verge until I talked to Brent (Freak) Thanks bud. Sorry for making you guys read all that and thank you. One of the biggest parts to the sport; Mental Strength- I'm lacking. I guess I need to man up, eat more and get more serious. Even though I don't think I can get any more serious. Thanks for reading once again.

In regards to my log, there's a huge snow storm here in Jersey. Not going to be able to go to the gym, whole family is home from work. Off day, which sucks- screws up the week of HST. I'm going to try to eat 8 meals today, up every macro. Posing will be on here later as well as my meal plan for the day.



Kevin

Alright, here goes,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,First off Your 15 years old and are in the same situation that bbdude was when he was bulking.. Your taking it tooo hard bro.. Look at what you have accomplished thus far.. You need a mental break from the IRON. Period.. I gave this ( almost ) same talk to bbdude and he HIT 200. Take a step back and look at your journals.

Not many 15 year olds are doing what YOUR doing at this moment.. Life is too short to toss it in the garbage now. KM we have watched you grow into the person you are now.. Hang in there.

As for your Dad, ahhhh, most likely does not know what to say..Sometimes silence is golden.. As a parent, we need to let our kids work things out.. Tough love so to speak.


Take a break, come back and hit it even harder. We are here for you, no matter what.

Chris

[robbyybt]

sorry to hear that bro, just remember mooreys post on pre contest. You have pretty much just said everything he has said about in it. Its normal to think your smaller, its something your just going to have to deal with. You are a strong boy, im two years older than you and you can already out lift me on pretty much everthing. Im sure everybody on this site suppports you 100% and whats you to keep going and win the contest. Your dad just doesnt understand what your going through so he wont say anything to help you because he cant relate to it.

And remember what you said to me the other day, you put too much into this to quit now!!

Keep going and try to regain your love for the sport, you will go far in it

[JakeVendetta]

I'll probably talk to you more tonight about this but for now all i got to say is... you really need to just take a short break or at least take some time to yourself and do something outside of bodybuilding that you enjoy.

You've seen it posted a thousand times bodybuilding is not a sprint its a marathon... this is a life commitment... people gain all year what you gained in just a few months. And thats only physically, not to mention the knowledge you've obtained over the past months that will stick with you forever and will continue to grow with you. This is a sport that requires alot out of someone, its mental, its physical, its emotional, its everything... and if you keep pushing yourself too hard too fast one of those will give. Unfortunetly two of them have affected you lately, and its hard but you will recover from it just like a hard workout... just stick with it and you'll get better.

Trust me i've seen your earlier pictures and some rescent ones... you are improving GREATLY, because your a GREAT person, not only in bodybuilding but in general. Just remember we all got your back... no homo. Much Love/Respect.

[YM123]

bro the best piece of advice i can give you to is to take a week off. Don't train at all, try and forget about bodybuilding just for a week. After you have had this week off hit the weights hard again.....i know this is probably the last thing you want to do but just try it and see how you get on.....another thing you MAY want to do is forget about this contest....i know you have your heart set on it but maybe you need to just take a longer bulk or bulk to a certain amount and then cut some fat and bulk again and by this time next year you will be HUGE. you are only 15 bro you don't need to stress yourself and do this this contest at such a young age. you'v got many years ahead of you so you don't need to rush anything.

I have had this problem in the past and in some ways still have it now,, you have just got to use it as motivation to push harder and get to where you want to be. PM if you wanna talk mate!!