The relationship problem is like former mentioned just the thing that made it all tip over, 5 years ago when I started I didn't even have a girlfriend, and my current girlfriend I've only been with for half a year. This go way beyond girlfriend problems, and are more sophisticated. Sometimes I can't even figure out why I'm depressed, sometimes it's just there, the sad mood and the pain.. When I am in this state of mind, there is nothing that keeps me from thinking about all the things that makes me very depressed. It seems like some of you think that I'm not depressed, because I can write it here and tell about it, keep in mind that I have been carrying around with this for 5 years without anyone knowing.. My parents and friends still don't know! I'm writing it in here because I don't have to look anyone of you in the eyes, and I will never see you guys.. It was back a few months ago I convinced myself that I am suffering from depression, and thinking back I now know that this goes way back, all the depressions and pain.. It has always been there, just always pushed it "pushed" it away, and tried to not care about it.. I know now that the last thing I should have done was that, but I did it and now it's all a mess.
__________________ Obsessed is a word that the lazy use to describe the dedicated.
I was born to carry the ultimate burden, that's why god gave me these wide shoulders.
There is only one thing in this world that will never let you down.. The iron on the barbell.
You never wanna show the weight that your scared... But this is some heavy ass weight. -Jay Cutler |