for 20 years I've been believing in god and jesus christ as our saviour.
I believed that no matter what... if you have true regrets, you can receive forgiveness.
Don't do bad things but right things.
Every person has a chanse to change (that's basic pschology also, human being is rational moral and psychic being and can learn new things)
You know how that goes.
The bible, I was reading it the other day. Everything made sense to me... that none of it made any sense. It's all bullshit.
Bible has a message, but there is no god, no spirits... it's all bullshit. it's all big moral control system, a way to keep control of freedome.
Universe does not have rules... so why does god give us rules of good and bad? good and bad which apply to our moral conquense.
But, if human being in fact is an empty picture when it's born and at the same time a rational and learning being, you can teach anything to it. Anything to keep control over. Everything from atoms to idea's of impossible and possible, and good and bad also. Just to keep control.
But since universe doesn't have any rules, there is no god.
As a christian I allways thought that the people who don't have touch in reality, who don't understand the difference between killing and eating cheerios, jesus will forgive them because they don't know what they do.
Ok, so since the whore eve ate from the tree of knowledge and offered an apple to adam, they both became aware of their nudity, sexual thought's, control, boarders... everything came into their awereness.
None of that makes sense. There is no good or bad, there is no proof of it, there is no proof that human being is sexual construction or moral construction. It's neither, it's all put in your head.
Everywhere you go people have these expectations about you, rules of acting, rules of behaving... all that crap, it has nothing to do with evolving...
I can't believe I was the victim of these made up rules.
.... My thought's were much clearer about this earlyer, but this is basicly what I thought... I guess my rant is over.
WELL!!! This is what I wanted to say, and I feel greate, I feel like a new person, pure, and one step closer to better freedome. Freedome from prying eyes and expectations. I feel good.
Only universal there is math. You can't bend that over or change that, you can't learn betetr from that. Math is and will allways be.
if it's not religion why people go to war, it's money, it's "social differences", it's.... everything else.... but not math. Noone can argue about math. If people would work together and spend money to space science, medicine's things like that instead of war and stop praying for fruck sake.. the world would make so much sense. | 
