I was just wondering if I could get some emotional support or help with this:
Since yesterday when I did chest and bis at the shitty YMCA [they moved machines and free weights around, less benches, only 1 set of the 'heavy' weights like 30, 35, 40 lbers etc available.], the Preacher Curl bench was an adjustable seat, but since I'm 6'4" I couldn't find a comfortable positions, I had to kinda stand a bit to reach the EZ bar...anyways I wasn't able to crank out my max of 55 lbs, it was 40, I was really messed up in the head. I guess I wasn't fully relaxed or mentally pumped, but I was expecting my 55 to be light... it wasn't.
EACH time I work out, I expect to add at least 5 lbs to the smaller exercises, ie Preacher Curl, Leg curl, DB Bench Press, calf raises, etc but ofcourse using proper form. On my larger exercises like Squat, Leg extensions, I want to add usually 40-60 lbs to shock the legs, keep em' guessing. I usually exhaust myself after 6-8 reps in 4-5 sets.
I just wanted some help because I can't ever really be satisfied. I mean, I've dropped 100 lbs but still want to lose more, but I need to bulk and get size too, I'm currently in a 'cutting' phase. Even if one day I'm able to add 50 lbs to my squat, I'm never happy, only unimpressed that through proper form I wasn't able to do more. Say I add 90 lbs to my leg press [I got it up to 630 at my peak, 5 months ago before knee injury] on one day, unless I was physically unable to get out 2-3 reps, then I'd be happy because I couldn't blame myself. I don't know if it makes sense but I'd be pissed if I couldn't do more than 8 reps [just TO DO IT, to show myself I could DO IT], but I wouldn't be be pissed if I couldn't do 2-3 reps because the weight was simply too much, like when I tried to do 700 straight up, using all the 45 lbs in the vicinity of the leg press, I couldn't even move it 1 inch, that was fine with me.
Am I the only one that never feels its ever good enough unless I'm totally at failure 100%? That's when I feel I had a really good workout, after getting in my normal weight sets and I try to go beyond my normal weights, like I probably know I'll fail on the 450 squat [410 is my limit so far] or the 700 leg press, but I just want to see if I can get 1 rep out. Does anyone else dig what I'm talking about?
__________________ 6'5", 211 lbs, 23 y.o.
Started BBing Late 2007, no end in sight. Currently bulking. Cut in Winter 2008. Training Log |