Today I woke up and had an epiphany.....
Reborn...upon awakening, I saw things in a new light
When the alarm woke me from my peace, I was not tired
I was not sore..I opened my eyes, they felt clear, soft ...refreshed
The rays from the morning sun absorbed me...
I listened to a bird sing me a song from my window....
I've never heard in such peace and clarity.....
Now I lay here not just awake....but alive....
Through these short 20 years I've been alive.......
But I am not sure if I really "lived"......
My body just went through motions, but my mind did not follow...
I was caught in confusion, fear, loath, anxiety, lust and greed....
Girls....family...friends...posessions, they were carving a hole deep hole in my heart...
But today was different.....
I did not rush downstairs to cook my meals....
Did not jump on the computer to get lost in this tech world we live in.....
Did not grab my phone to see who called the previous night.....
To the bathroom I headed and looked in the mirror...
Normally I would see two versions of me.....
The person I work so hard everyday to create just to be accepted....
And the person I really am under this thin shell of insecurities....
But today I saw the real me.....and I was happy with him...
The warm, clear water ran as I washed my face...
The warmth soaked into my skin, opening my pours, making me feel the fresh air even more....
I reached for the
soap and took in the exotic aromas...
Once in the kitchen, I popped the can of coffee and indulged in the smell....fresh, eye opening....
The smell of eggs and hot oatmeal drifed through my house...
It was then I realized, really.... how lucky I am to be doing this every day....
To do what I love and truley find peace through it....
God could have done with me whatever he sought.....
Blind, deaf, mute, or even mentally ill.....
So why on earth would I complain of my short comings...
Of all the things...they make me unique.....
When I see people with handicaps enjoying life more than most of my friends.....
It's most inspiring...
We only get one chance....one time......one.... life..
Make the best of it my friends.....
My biggest fear in life is saying "what if?"
What if I never aksed that girl?.....Never helped that poor man?.....Never spoke up in a crowd of optimists?
Don't let this happen.............We have a meaning to live, a purpose....a will..so make the best of what you have..
Don't just exist.....leave your legacy.........
This was inspired from Angels and Airwaves in the song
"The Adventure" -"I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I'm the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine."
Good writing bro
guys have deep thoghts too.
